Lamma Hoodie | Itch To Stitch Patterns


I apologize….I’ve been neglecting my blog and really focusing on my YouTube channel. I will try my best to focus on both!

Today, I have a fun pattern review for you and it’s all about the Lamma Hoodie by Itch To Stitch Patterns.

The Lamma Hoodie is a PDF pattern that comes in sizes 00-40 and calls for fabrics with at least 25% – 35% horizontal stretch such as: french terry and jersey. The patterns has a lot of different options: regular or full bust, a hoodie or a cowl neck and cuffed or thumbhole sleeves. It features raglan sleeves and princess seams with front inseam pockets within those princess seams. It really is a great pattern for color blocking options!

For my version, I sewed a size 6 regular bust with no alterations. I sewed the cowl neck with cuffed sleeves. I’m 5’9″ my measurements are: Bust 36, Waist 31, Hips 38. I sewed mine using a floral scuba fabric that I purchased from my local fabric shop back in 2018 or 2019 and a stretch velvet in dusty rose from Overseas Fabric.

I’m really happy with this pattern and the fit. The downside is (not pattern at all) I’ve washed the floral fabric twice – once prior to sewing and once after wearing the hoodie a couple of times and the floral design is already fading and peeling off. Other than that, I’m really happy with this make.

I didn’t add a drawstring because my machine had a mishap while I was sewing the button holes. They didn’t turn out the greatest, but that is okay as the cowl rolls over and the button holes are hidden. I also decided to leave the inseam pockets out, as the scuba fabric is quite thick and I didn’t want to add any bulk to the hoodie.

The inspiration for this project came from Karina from Lifting Pins and Needles. She made a beautiful red velvet version and I absolutely fell in love with it and knew that I needed to sew a velvet one too! Her red version was my inspiration for the dusty rose velvet! She has a whole video for the Lamma Hoodie and you can watch it here. Be sure to check out her YouTube Channel!

(I asked for Karina’s permission to use her photo)

Karina’s Red Velvet Version! Red is definitely her color!

Now, for the fun part of this pattern review is, I had mentioned back in January (after the Lamma Hoodie release) that I was interested in sewing it and a couple of my friends on Instagram also mentioned that they too were interested in sewing the Lamma Hoodie. I asked both of them if they’d be interested in sewing it together and they both said yes. I created us a Facebook group called “Lamma SewTogether”. It was a really neat experience as we were able to bounce ideas off of each other and post progress photos. I really liked the idea of creating the Facebook group so that I could log onto Facebook and see what my friends were up to when it came to sewing the Lamma Hoodie. I sometimes find social media overwhelming at times, so this created a place I could log into and see exactly what they were up to without being distracted by other posts and such.

The best part is….we each sewed ourselves a variation of pink fabrics and we didn’t even plan that! How cool is that?!\

I had so much sewing the Lamma Hoodie with Meg and Rikki. Definitely check out their instagrams:

Meg: Meg also has a blog that can be found here. She also has a blog post about her Lamma, that can be found here.


Meg’s Version – Those colors are stunning on her!
Rikki’s version -Isn’t Rikki gorgeous in this fuchsia Lamma?!? Fuchsia is my favorite color!

(I asked Meg and Rikki for permission to use their photos in my blog post)

Thank you ladies for sewing the Lamma Hoodie with me, I had so much fun! We will definitely need to do this again for a future sewing project!

Will I make this pattern again? Absolutely, hopefully sooner rather than later! My next version will include a hood and inseam pockets!

Thank you for taking the time to read my experience sewing the Lamma Hoodie!

“The only thing missing from your birthday celebration was YOU, dad.” — Me

My First Style Arc Make!!

I honestly do not know what took me this long to sew a Style Arc pattern! I’ve heard people say how beautiful the fit is and how well drafted the patterns are. I guess it took a Black Friday Sale for me to final give in and purchase my very first pattern. This is the Kristy Woven Top Pattern by Style Arc.

When you purchase a PDF pattern from Style Arc, you only receive one size. I picked a size 10 based on my measurements and their measurement chart. I’m really happy with the fit of the size 10.

I used a textured dotted viscose fabric from my local fabric store. This is the very first fabric that I purchased when the fabric shops were allowed to re-open back in June. Unfortunately, right now as I type this, our fabric shops are closed. In fact, one store actually stopped providing the curbside pick up service. I’m not too sure why. But anyways, this fabric will always remind me of how excited I was to go back into a fabric store…it was amazing. I can’t wait to be able to do that again!

This was my very first time sewing a rouleau loop, and I’m pretty sure I sewed the loop to the facing and the back facing to the blouse wrong. But it looks fine. I’m definitely going to be sewing this top again very soon and I will try another way of attaching the loop to the facing and the back facing to the top. I tried to find a pink or purple button, but was unsuccessful, so I used this black button. I think the black button looks beautiful.

Some things to note about this pattern:

  • The pattern instructions are similar to Burda Style – very minimal and maybe 1 photo (of a tricky step). There was a total of 14 instructions for this top.
  • The sleeves have a dart, but the instructions do not instruct you to sew the dart, so don’t forget about the sleeve dart if you do end up sewing this pattern.
  • Pattern does not instruct you to stay-stitch the neck or the arm holes. With this lightweight fabric, I would suggest stay-stitching. I didn’t on this make, but I will for my future makes.
  • On the styled pattern photo – the sleeves look a bit longer. I even lengthened my sleeves by one inch.

Will I make this pattern again? Absolutely, right away actually. I really enjoyed sewing this. The pattern pieces came together beautifully. I haven’t had that happen in a long time! It was simply beautiful the way they all came together. For my next make, I will lengthen the sleeves again (I’m not too sure by how much yet), I will stay-stitch the neck line for sure and I’m even considered doing a double flounce – I will need to see how much fabric I have!

I hope you enjoyed this make as much as I did!

“Dad, you are missed and loved beyond measure. I miss you everyday.” — Me

First Make of 2021!

Happy New Year!

Sapporo Coat | Papercut Patterns

This is my first make of 2021! All of the details can be found on Minerva. I was gifted the outer fabric from Minerva in exchange of a blog post, all opinions are my own. Please head to the Minerva site to read all of the details.

I purchased the PDF pattern and the lining myself. The lining fabric is from Fabricville.

“Christmas isn’t the same without you dad. I love and miss you everyday.” — Me

Pattern Testing | Heidi Dress

I believe one of the best things about sewing is, when you can sew a dress that is absolutely gorgeous, yet very very easy to make!



This is that make!  Easy to make, gorgeous to wear!

The Pattern:

This is the Heidi Dress by AKpatterns.  I was fortunate to pattern test this pattern and it was such an enjoyable experience, everyone in the testing group was very supportive of each other!

At the time of testing, the dress was available in one length, but Athina has made the dress available in 2 different lenghts; a midi and a knee length.

The pattern has 2 views, version 1 has ruffles on the bodice along the princess seams and version 2 does not have ruffles on the bodice.


Both versions have princess seams on the bodice, an elastic in the waist, and a hook and eye closure on the back.

My Tester Version:

For my tester version, I made mine with a fabric called “Linen Look” and the fabric is composed of rayon and nylon.  I purchased it from my local Fabricland.  There are definitely some fabrics that are nicer to look at than to sew with, that’s for sure.

I first sewed a toile, using old bed sheets.  I sewed a straight size 12.

I thought at first that the size 12 was really really good.  I was almost shocked at how well it fit straight off of the pattern.  The only issue I found, it was a little tight underneath the arm while I moved my arm.


For my final version, I shaved off 0.5cm from the underarm on both pieces (side front and side back bodice pieces).  I was really nervous because I honestly really try to avoid making changes, especially during a test.  Athina had warned me that the bias binding for my underarm may be a little short now due to my alteration.  I ended up cutting my bias binding a little longer just in case and it all worked out perfectly in the end.  I’m really proud of this alteration.  I need to be more brave in my sewing to make these kinds of alterations for future makes.

With making the changes on a bodice with princess seams, I drew out all of the seam lines and matched the pattern pieces along the seam lines and re-drew the underarm to make sure all of the pieces were the same and that I could keep the underarm the same shape and roundness (using a curved ruler).


The only other issue, or difficulty I encountered during this pattern test, was hemming of the ruffles.  WOW!  I almost gave up.  I had wrote to Athina – apologizing for saying I was testing the ruffle version and I had asked her if it was okay if I just made version 2 without the ruffles for my final.  She said it was no problem.  But….my husband was the one who convinced me not to give up.

Now, I don’t want to discourage you at all.  I’m really happy that I didn’t give up, I mean, just look at my dress!


In the instructions for the pattern, Athina even states that hemming of the ruffles takes time and patience and it really does!  I literally spent all of a Saturday afternoon hemming the 2 ruffles.  I messed up on the first one that I had to re-cut my fabric.  Hemming the ruffles on the curve, takes a lot of time, patience and a lot of pins.  I had to grab more pins from the stash!

Apparently, if you have a rolled hem foot for your sewing machine, it will make the task that much easier!  I even tried to do a rolled hem by hand, but that didn’t go so well.  That is something I would love to practice in the future – when I’m not on a time crunch.

But, with all that being said, don’t be discouraged….I mean, I didn’t give up and I’m so glad my husband convinced me.  Now, my ruffles aren’t perfect, but with practice, they will be!



Will I Make This Dress Again?

Absolutely!  In fact, I’m starting to really think about sewing the patterns that really speak to me a couple more times to get better practice at fit and pattern hacking.

Once I completed the ruffles, my husband suggested I should try a version with the ruffles, but to make the ruffles a little narrower than these ones.  He suggested little short ruffles that barely come off of the shoulder and I thought that was a cute idea.  There is also a Burda Style dress that has lace ruffles and I think that would be gorgeous as well, a dress with coordinating lace ruffles!  I just tried to find the dress on the Burda Style website, but was unsuccessful.  Once I can find a picture, I will update this blog post.

One more alteration I might do for a future make, is to shorten the bodice by 0.5cm – 1cm.  Maybe it’s the fabric choice, or the length of the bodice, but my final version the bodice bubbles over the elastic at the waist.  Looking at the other tester versions, I don’t think that is the way it’s supposed to fit.  Keep in mind that the cotton bed sheets are a little more stiffer than the rayon/nylon that I used.


I really love this make and I’m just so proud of myself for not giving up and completing the ruffles.  Thank you Athina for allowing me to test your beautiful pattern!

Check out Athina’s website to see all of the tester versions!  You can click here.

Thanks for taking the time to read about my experience testing the Heidi Dress from AKpatterns.  The Heidi Dress is on sale for 10% off the regular price until Sunday August 9, 2020!

“We know you’d be with us today if heaven wasn’t so far away.” — Author Unknown.


Sunday Romper | Love Notions Patterns

It’s not Sunday…..but I’ll be chatting about the Sunday Romper by Love Notions Patterns.

Recently, I have fallen completely in love with Love Notions Patterns, they are really beautiful and easy patterns to sew.  I was able to test the Sunday Romper for both Ladies and Children (I still need to make my daughter and I matching).

First off, I love a good jumpsuit/romper pattern.  Back in summer 2018 – it was my summer for jumpsuits.  It’s now 2020 and guess what… I still LOVE jumpsuits.



Now, I must start off with is, if you know me personally, or knew me growing up….you’d know how much I disliked v-necks.  Almost always, if a shirt came in a v-neck or round neck, I always reached for the round neck.  If a shirt only came in a v-neck, I would pass.  I have now sewn 3 patterns of Tami’s that are all v-necks.  Who would have thought I would grow to love sewing my own v-neck top?!

Now, back to the pattern.

The Pattern

The pattern comes in sizes 0-32.  It features a front and back v-neck line, front angled pockets and an elasticated waist (my absolute fav!).  It also comes in ladies and children sizes.


The Sunday Romper has a lot of options, depending on what you like, or which season you are in.  It comes in a dolman style sleeve or a tank and you can mix and match the top portion with either a full length leg, cropped pants, shorts, or even 2 lengths for the skirt.  The pattern also comes with an optional draw string at the waist.

It calls for light to medium weight knit fabrics, such as: jersey or rayon blends.

In Tami’s initial test of the pattern, she mixed a knit top with a woven bottom, this is something I definitely want to try.


My Version

I used a lilac knit fabric from my stash, I believe is it a light weight ponte knit or else a cotton lycra mix.  I’m unsure.  All I know is I purchased this fabric a while ago from my local Fabricland, back when they had a buy 1 meter get 2 meter free, and the stretch and recovery of this fabric is great!

As per Tami’s recommendations, I sewed a size 10 top, grading to a size 6 bottom.


I left the draw string out of my version, but will definitely be adding it in for my future Sunday Rompers (so if you are asking, will I be making more, the answer is definitely yes!).  Be mindful when choosing your knit fabric, make sure it has a nice stretch and recovery, as you need to slip your legs through the neck opening to get the romper on.  I even want to make a dress version, the testers dresses turned out lovely!


I really love this romper pattern.  I sewed a Butterick pattern a couple years ago and I just find that I get a really nice fit with Tami’s patterns without too many alterations.  In fact, while I test, I don’t make any alterations – strictly for the purpose of testing.


Ever since falling in love with Tami’s patterns, I’ve decided to sign up for an affiliate link for Love Notions.  This post does contain affiliate links – all that means is: if you click on my link and make a purchase, I receive a small commission at no extra cost to you!

Thank you for taking the time to stop by and read!  I hope that you enjoy the Sunday Romper as much as I do!  Here is a link to the Girls version as well!

Here is a little peek at my daughters tester version.  I used a cheap knit (I don’t recommend – as the stretch and recovery of this knit is not ideal) for the top and a liverpool knit for the bottom!  She absolutely loves it!

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“Some days I turn and look for you with thoughts I’d like to share.  Some days I just can’t understand the reason you’re not there.” — Author Unknown.

Rhapsody Top & Dress | Love Notions

I absolutely love a good collaboration!

This is a good one, make sure to keep reading.  Tami, from Love Notions recently re-tested her Rhapsody Top Pattern (mid April-ish) on her new pattern block and extended her size range.  She re-released the pattern on a Friday, so the pattern was on sale for $5 USD that one Friday – you can’t go wrong with a pattern priced at $5.  After seeing the tester versions especially Tess’s version, I knew I just HAD to have this pattern. When it went on sale for $5, I grabbed it quickly.  I headed to Instagram and told my sewing friends that I purchased the pattern.  Jayne, from Loopy Mabel’s Closet messaged me and said that she purchased the pattern as well.



We started chatting about the pattern and how much we loved the tester versions.  Jayne and I decided that we should do a collaboration.  But what would that look like, with her being in the UK and I in Canada?!

We then decided, lets’s sew the pattern at the same time and we will try to guess what each other will make (sleeve view, bodice view, and fabric).  Then, reveal our makes on our YouTube Channels.

My Prediction:

I’ve been following Jayne for roughly a year now and I like to think that I have a good sense of her style (kinda like mine).  I predicted that she was going to make the top version, with the flare sleeves in a pastel floral type of fabric!

The Pattern:

Before we find out if my prediction was right, let’s first chat about the pattern.  The Rhapsody comes in sizes XS to 5X, with 9 (yes, 9) sleeve options and it comes in a blouse or dress option (with an elastic waist band).  The Rhapsody is meant for lightweight drapey fabrics such as: crepe, rayon, silk, chiffon and voile.  The pattern also comes with a standard bust or a full bust pattern piece.


My Version:

The tester version that inspired me the most was done by Tess, Tami’s sister.  She made the dress version with a bishop sleeve with a cuff in a beautiful floral-ish rayon fabric.  I absolutely loved it, plus the color looked fabulous on her.

So, naturally, I just had to make the dress version (that elastic waist band gets me all-the-time).  I decided to use fabric from my shop, Willow Tree Fabrics, a 100% rayon/viscose big floral fabric.


I sewed the dress view, with the flutter sleeve in a straight size 6 (standard bust).  I’m really pleased with my version.

For the most part, the sewing was pretty easy.  I personally struggled a little bit with the bias tape part.  I remember, from a few years back now – I was doing a pattern test and I was using a rayon fabric and I had used cotton bias tape along the edges, as shown below.


Just so you know, this picture has never seen the light of day.  I’m standing awkward in this photo, because the weight of the cotton bias tape is dragging the front of the bodice down and I’m trying my best to keep it from falling over.  This was a big lesson I learned in my sewing journey.

The lesson?  You should use the same type of fabric for your bias tape as your main project fabric.

So, while I was sewing the Rhapsody, I kept thinking about using a pink cotton bias tape and at the very last moment I remembered this picture and project.

Due to the world situation and such, I had no other option but to make my own bias tape with the same fabric as my dress.  I bought a bias tape maker a few years back, but never tried it until this project.  Unfortunately, I was unable to successfully get the fabric through the device properly in order to create bias binding.  Plus, I don’t have any starch on hand.  I ended up just folding and pressing the fabric on my own.  I think I made the bias tape wrong, but this is all a learning experience.  Despite that little hiccup, I believe my dress still turned out beautiful.


Here is a sneak peek at Jayne’s Rhapsody Top, isn’t she gorgeous!!


I want to encourage you to check out Jayne’s Blog and YouTube Channel to see if my prediction was right!


Be sure to watch this space for more collaborations between Jayne and myself.  We had so much fun together that we have decided to collaborate with each other on a monthly basis.  I’m really looking forward to collaborating with Jayne!

Thanks for reading!

*Since falling in love with the Allegro and the Rhapsody patterns by Love Notions, I have become an affiliate of Love Notions.  What that means for you, is, if you purchase a pattern through my affiliate link I will receive a small commission at no extra cost to you.

My affiliate link for the Rhapsody Blouse & Dress pattern can be found here!

“A daughter’s biggest nightmare is losing her dad.  I have lost mine.  And I’m in such pain that no one can feel.  I miss you dad.” — Author Unknown

Mommy and Me Tops

Yes, I’m going to be one of those parents.  I will sew my daughter matching tops with me for as long as she will let me.  This was my first attempt and I think it turned out fabulous!  Now, try getting an almost 3 year old to pose for pictures.  This was the best that I could do, but that’s okay because it’s not the pictures that count….it’s the joy on her face to wear something that mommy made.

I was contemplating the Burda Style magazine subscription for quite some time, but for Christmas, I decided to use my Christmas money for the magazine subscription (thank you!).  So far, to date, I’ve received 3 issues (February, March and April).


Her Pattern:

For my very first magazine make, I decided to make my daughter a top from the February 2020 issue of Burda Style.  It is style number 130, you can also purchase the PDF download using the link above.

This pattern is a basic t-shirt pattern featuring a high-low hem.  It comes in Burda Style sizes 116-140.  This pattern calls for jersey fabrics.

Sewing this top was fairly straight forward and easy.  I love that they have you sew the sleeves in flat and then sew the sleeve seam and side seams in one go!  This pattern features a high-low hem.  Very quick and easy, the instructions were clear.

I made the smallest size that the pattern comes in, which is a Burda Style size 116.  My daughter doesn’t quite fit into the Burda Style Children’s sizes just yet, so it is a little big for her right now, but she will grow into it.  Besides, children grow very fast, so this gives her a chance to wear it a little while longer.

My Pattern:

For my top, I used the Pixie Tee by Chalk and Notch Patterns.   The Pixie Tee comes in sizes 0 – 18 and calls for fabrics that are light to medium weight stretch knit (rayon jersey, cotton jersey, french terry).  The pattern has 2 views, A and B, but you could easily mix the views for a custom look to your liking.

I sewed view A, in a straight size 8 with no alterations.  This pattern is very similar to the pattern that I used for my daughter’s top, even down to the construction.  Both patterns have you sew the sleeves in flat and then the sleeve seam and size seam in one go, which is my preferred method.  At the time of the photos and this blog post, the hem sleeves are left raw and I’m thinking of leaving it that way.


I misread the instructions while sewing this and I sewed the incorrect hem width (blame it on the working from home and work papers scattered all around my sewing room).  I folded my hem smaller than the instructions said to.  This is an accident that turned out to be in my favor.  The pattern calls for 1.25 inch elastic, which I currently do not have.  But that is okay, because as I was sewing this I thought to myself “there’s no way a 1.25 inch elastic will fit in there”.  Some time ago, my mom gave me a bunch of old bed sheets that had the elastic in them.  Last year, I seam ripped the elastic out and kept it just in case I needed an elastic of that size.  Luckily, this was the perfect sized elastic for my Pixie Tee.

Now, with that being said, it also means that my side ties do not fit into the hem like they are supposed to.  When the tie is tied up, you don’t even notice my error…which is always a good thing when you can not see your own mistakes.

Other than my error, this is a great pattern and I can definitely see myself making more of these tops, some with the ties and some without.



The Fabric:

At the beginning of January 2020 while I was at the fabric store, I seen this fabric while my daughter was shopping with me.  She kept asking if I was going to make her more things, so I decided I would buy extra yardage from now on (if the price is right).  I couldn’t help but be drawn to the beautiful flowers.

This fabric is from my local Fabricland.  It is a polyester type of knit.  I’ve tried to find a similar fabric on the Fabricville website, but was unsuccessful.  I paid roughly $4 per meter.  Now, if I’m being honest, it is very beautiful, but I do not prefer it.  As I become more skilled in my sewing, I have learned to love some fabrics and some not so much.  Of course, sometimes with fabrics….you get what you pay for.  This fabric does not have a good recovery.  You need to be extra careful sewing with this kind of fabric.

Sometimes when I look at fabrics, I think to myself “is it worth the pain?”.  Luckily for me, both tops turned out beautiful!

Do you find there are fabrics out there that look beautiful but you avoid because of how they are to handle while sewing?  I’m curious to hear your thoughts on this.

Thanks for reading.  Up next, I’ll be sewing myself a Burda Style top and providing a review of my experience sewing with the Burda Style magazines!



Please note:  All opinions are my own, I do not have affiliate links.  I like to provide an honest, in depth opinion so that you can make a decision to try or not to try a pattern or fabric.

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McCalls 7660 Pattern Review

For 2020 I want to be able to provide my readers with more information instead of a “look what I made” type of posts. So for my first informative post of 2020, it will be an in depth review of one of my favorite patterns – McCalls 7660.


On the McCalls site, it says that M7660 is out of print but is still available to purchase as a PDF download. I do not have any experience purchasing any Big 4 patterns through the PDF download option. If you have any experience with this, please let me know in the comments.

Firstly, when I look at the Big 4 patterns I always always look at the real life model. When I first seen the model for M7660 – it reminded me a lot like McCalls 7800. M7800 is from the 2018 fall line. The sleeves are very similar. Both M7800 and M7660 are out of print but are available for PDF download.


Lets start off with, I absolutely love both patterns and wear them the most in my me-made wardrobe! I’ve made M7800 twice – once in a Woven and once in a knit. To be honest, the woven version is beautiful, however, I found it tight in the armscye with wear. I might chop the dress and make a skirt with the fabric for the spring/summer months.


Let’s get back on track with the review of M7660. McCalls 7660 calls for moderate stretch knits such as: sweater knits, ponte and cotton knits. The first version as seen below, I made with a cotton knit from Fabricville (one of my favorite fabrics from Fabricville). It has an amazing stretch and recovery.


The second version of M7660 I made was using a sweater knit from my local Fabricland. The sweater knit that I used doesn’t have as good of an recovery like the cotton knit that I used before. The sweater knit feels a little larger than the cotton knit.

Both versions I made in a size 14 with a small bust adjustment in view B. However, I did lengthen the sweater knit version. Instead of cutting the pattern at the cutting line for view B, I cut at the view A cutting line.

I’m a huge huge fan of sweaters with cuffs, it’s the most comfortable thing ever….in my own opinion.  M7660 has quite of few options for the neckline, sleeves and hem. You could easily mix and match the options for a unique look.

  • The neck options are: mock turtle neck, v-neck and v-neck with a tie
  • The sleeve options are: cuffed, no cuff or a small bishop sleeve with a cuff.
  • You can lengthen or shorten the sweater to your desired length, you could even make a sweater in a tunic length.

Similar Options:

Now, for the fun part….find patterns with a similar silhouette so that you could recreate this pattern if you wish.


First off, I believe The Pixie Tee by Chalk & Notch Patterns is a similar option! I have a plan to make a long sleeve version B, with the tie detail from version A.



If your looking for a version with a similar neck line, The Nikko Top by True Bias is the way to go. Michele made a beautiful long sleeved Nikko in a beautiful speckled fabric!




If you are a fan of the Big 4 patterns, Simplicity 8947 has a similar but different take on the pattern. The Simplicity pattern is for a longer dress/tunic version with very similar sleeve options as well as a hood option.

There you have a few different options if you want to make a sweater similar to M7660 but can’t get a hold of the pattern. I hope you found this style of blog post helpful in your sewing journey!

Thanks for reading!

“I had lost my happiness when I lost you, I am still missing you every day of my life.” — Author Unknown.